Well that was a waste of money

‎28 and a bit hours smoke free - hynotherapy doesn't seem to have been worth the money though as am madly craving fags, but will not give in as have paid ridiculous amount of money for this. Whole point of hypno was to stop smoking without the irritability or weight gain. Am angry as hell and have eaten my own weight in crisps today. Fun

Doesn't help though when discover 2 of the lighters I threw away last night are no longer in the bin - go looking for them and find them in husbands drawer along with a whole packet of fags. Maybe the hypno was worth it as I didn't Smoke any and made him take them out of the flat when he got in. 

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRr though - that is not the support I was after, and coupled with the nasty Endo (or whatever) pain I've had today, I'm not in the best of moods.  

FAG FAG FAG FAG FAG FAG FAG FAG FAG

I've been told to look at RED and it will bring back my determination to give up or something so here's a lot of red to remind me of this:

REDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDRED